Motherhood: Learning to surrender

Me and my "sun": A glittering moment of perfection....
Photo Credit- Wayne Gaskin of Genuis Photography

Well folks, it has been awhile since I have blogged about anything. My life has been a whirlwind (in a good way) and I've been riding the waves of transformation. When the energy is high and life is stirring, my writing is always the thing that suffers. I have been thinking about writing an entry for awhile now but, I couldn't focus in on a topic to blog about.

Then, a few minutes ago, I looked over at my son while he is napping and the word "surrender" came to my mind. He is so peaceful with his arms raised over his head and that moment became an opportunity for me to just come on here and write about whatever came through my fingertips. It's amazing that as mothers, we are here to teach our children but, they end up teaching us far more. The wonderful part about it is they are usually just being themselves and doing what they naturally do.

I have been thinking a lot about my views on destiny lately. As I reflect on my life these past few years, my perception of it is beginning to change. In the past I had thought that I had come face to face with destiny and then I began to doubt it. My life looked far different than I ever envisioned and I was scared that I had completely altered the course of my entire life forever. Destiny felt like a thing of the past.

I had an "aha" moment a few days ago and realized that destiny isn't always wrapped in a perfect box and it doesn't always come to us with bells and whistles. Just as destiny is in the pleasurable times; it resides in the moments of uncertainty and despair. It is the decisions you make with what you are given or what you have chosen that makes the difference in how your life unfolds.

 Now that I am at a turning point in my life (there have been many), I can look back on all the hardships and see exactly what I gained as a human being and as a mother. I am the culmination of all that I have experienced and I almost feel like I wouldn't be where I am; with the amount of awareness and appreciation for life, if I hadn't gone down this road. And through it all, I always felt in my heart that this was preparing me for something far greater. I just didn't trust in my own intuition.

My road has been unpaved, desolate, and there were times where all I could see were dead ends. There were so many times where I felt like giving up completely; and in many ways, I did. But, there were also glittering moments of perfection that kept me feeling like I was still being guided through the seemingly impossible. And as I look back on how I got to this place, it all seems far more than just serendipity. While I believe that my destiny has been revealing itself all along, I also understand now that love, consciousness, and discipline are at the heart of actualizing anything. I have the proper tools to rebuild my life with righteousness and I am a testament to the power of possibility.

As I cross over into a new phase of my life, I am more humble and grateful than ever! In the midst of it all, I have the most amazing life with my children; even with the challenges, it sometimes feels otherwordly.The message of surrender is to let go and embrace what is. It's the gift of acceptance. It is trusting in your own process and being authentic in your own life. It is the power in just being who you are and living with faith and trust.

I surrender to the greatness of who I am as a mother, visionary, and human being. I am eagerly anticipating all that is to come in life and am excited for the opportunity to share more of the journey.